Sunday, April 24, 2011

Easter Post!

It feels like it's been so long since I've posted.  This post is probably going to be pretty short, but I just have some stuff to say.  First of all, today is Easter!  I miss my family, especially on holidays that I'm not at home, but I know I'm going to be home very soon and all I'll want is to be back at school.  There's really nowhere else I'd rather be than at school.  The Freshman Revue is this upcoming Wednesday and Thursday, so our class has been rehearsing our tails off.  As of about an hour ago, the show is OFFICIALLY completely staged.  From what I've seen, I think it's going to be a great show.  We have full run thrus and tech tomorrow, Tuesday, and Wednesday afternoon, shows on Wednesday and Thursday night, no class on Friday, then finals week, then HOME on Saturday May 7th!  This year has gone by so fast, and I've learned so much.  More on that later.  There's no way I'm writing a reflection post yet.  Not ready.

I've been working on another post too...  It's a sort of survey that I found randomly online called 62 Power Questions You Should Ask to Reconnect With Yourself.  I guess I could just read through them and think about my answer like a normal person, but I think having to articulate answers to these difficult and revealing questions is a good exercise, so I'm forcing myself to finish it.  Who knows when it'll actually be up, but it'll be long as hell.  

A few notes about family.  In the last couple weeks, like I said, we've been in rehearsal for the Freshman Revue and spending a lot of time together as a class, which we don't often get to do.  In classes it's usually just two cores at a time.  Having this time together has made me realize that we are all a family.  There can be drama or whatever, but at the end of the day, WE ARE A FAMILY.  Having less than two weeks left of freshman year has made me want to embrace every minute I have here.  We are a family and we are all so blessed to be here. 

Sunday, April 10, 2011

I Spy Something Pretty...

 Boston Common
Let me just start by saying that this has been one of my favorite weekends of ALL TIME here in Boston.  The weather is so nice - I think we’re FINALLY done with the snow for this year - And I’m definitely taking advantage of it.  I know earlier in the year, I made a few goals for myself.  I wanted to only surround myself with people I love and that don’t stress me out, and I wanted to get out and experience this beautiful city that I live in.  I have certainly done both of these things this weekend.  Friday night wasn’t too exciting.  Core 1 is always EXHAUSTED on Friday nights because we have class nonstop from 9 to 6:20.  Plus, it’s a Friday.  I went and saw a grad thesis project that a couple of my classmates were in and ended up crashing in my room pretty early.  Yesterday and today were the best days.  Yesterday morning I went out to breakfast at the caf with Matt and Gavin, then Gavin had to run off to rehearsal so Matt and I decided to take full advantage of the beautiful day.  We took a walk from the caf, back past the dorms, and all the way down Boylston Street to the Boston Common (About a mile and a half), and obviously stopped for Starbucks on the way.  There were so many people out with their cute puppies and SO many kids running around.  I miss that about the suburbs.  One of my favorite moments ever was on our walk over.  There was this cute little family of three walking down the street. This was their dialogue:
Boy:  I spy.... Something pretty!
Mom:  Is it Daddy?
Boy: No...
Mom:  Is it you?
Boy: No...
Dad:  Is it Mommy?
Boy: YES!
We were DYING! They were so cute!  There was also this awesome one man band there. Anyway, after a walk around the entire park, we headed over to Storrow Drive which goes right along the Charles River Basin with an awesome view of the city.  We walked along the river until we got to the docks where we were able to just lay out and take a nap in the sun right on the water.  Afterward we met up with Gavin and did some shopping.  Then we went our separate ways. I went to Whole Foods and back to my room to get ready for Harvard with the girls!  Dinner with Matt and Gavin, then we headed to the OWL Club at Harvard for a cocktail party.  By the time we got there it was pretty damn crowded, but we still had a good time.  It’s always nice to get out of the BoCo bubble and mingle with straight guys.

This morning (Sunday), I had signed up to go to the New England Aquarium with SGA.  So excited.  The New England Aquarium is RIGHT on the Boston Harbor - It’s so beautiful.  Turned out that only about half of the people that signed up were able to go, so it ended up being a really intimate group.  I ended up hanging out with Elyse, Matt, and Ally mostly.  So much fun.  After the aquarium and some lunch, we decided to just walk home.  It’s a pretty long walk home from the Harbor, but the weather was beautiful.  We walked through the North End, saw the oldest restaurant in the country, went along the Freedom Trail and saw two different cemeteries where all of these amazing historical people were buried.  We saw grave sites for Samuel Adams, John Hancock, Paul Revere, and Ben Franklin’s parents.  It was such a spontaneous thing to do!  I loved it.  

Then we walked all the way around back to the Common, where there was a huge Greek Festival and parade going on.  It was THRILLED. We didn’t stay long or anything but it felt like a little piece of home was in Boston with me. I really miss the Greek Festival back home - I’m so sad I won’t be able to be there for it this year. Also, we saw people playing Quidditch in the park.  Yeah, that’s right. Quidditch.  It was the funniest thing I’ve EVER seen. Anyway, we walked the rest of the way down Boylston until we got back to the BoCo, which brings me to where I am right now - Sitting outside of Pavement Coffee House drinking an iced tea and soaking up the last few hours of sunshine. It's days like today when I'm so grateful to be living the life that I do. I live in a beautiful city full of beautiful people.

Tuesday, April 5, 2011


The move toward perfection creates a more innate sense of imperfection.

In a profession where we are constantly working to be the best, where do we draw the line?  Performers are constantly trying to get that extra turn, more notes on their range, the perfect contrasting monologues or whatever.  Where does it stop? Are we ever going to be happy with ourselves?  As the end of the semester is approaching, I've been talking to some friends about how much we've improved this year.  I know it's impossible to stand back and look at yourself objectively.  It's so hard to judge what is 'good' in this field.  Everything is relative.  I know without a doubt that I've made so much progress, but at the same time I'm now more aware of where I COULD be.  In my Liberal Arts class (Utopia and Terror), we're studying western philosophical texts; most recently, Descartes.  In Descartes' Discourse on Method, he states that all his education did for him was make him aware of everything he DIDN'T know.  How does this relate to performing arts?  I think on one hand it's great to be aware of the possibilities for yourself, but does it get tiring to be working toward an ever-developing goal?  I now know the caliber of my competition in this field.  I know where my acting could be.  Taking History of Musical Theater taught me so much about shows that I didn't know about, but also showed me how much more there is to be known.  I'm seeing glimpses into my potential self every day.  I guess my question is this: How do we maintain the joy for the art?  Where is the satisfaction?  I'm not doubting my passion for acting, but I think as performers we are constantly judging ourselves.  We're our own toughest critics.  We never have performances that were PERFECT, and it seems that we dwell on the imperfections and blow them out of proportion.  Does that make us work harder?  For some people maybe.  I know that for some people, it turns their passion into too much 'work' and the joy is lost.  Obviously I don't have many of these answers right now.  I guess it's just an interesting concept that I'm toying with.  Thoughts?

Sunday, April 3, 2011

...And the world spins madly on

Okay, let me just start off by saying that if any of y'all haven't been to Dick's Last Resort, you are MISSING OUT.  It's this themed restaurant... It's supposed to be like that place you go when you can't get a reservation anywhere else.  The waiters treat you like shit, basically, and make these hats that say embarrassing things on them, too.  Thanks to my core-mate Jonathan, mine said 'Carpet Muncher'... Always with the lesbian jokes...  Anyway, we went out to celebrate Gavin's 23rd birthday, which is tomorrow.  It was so much fun to get almost our entire class together.  Just the kind of bonding our class needs right now.

Without getting into too much detail, I'll say that there was some drama tonight.  I guess that's to be expected when you get 35 musical theater majors into the same room.  For some reason, the entire time this drama was playing out, the song 'World Spins Madly On' by The Weepies was playing over and over again in my head.  No matter what happens, life keeps moving.  I think everyone needs to just take a breath and calm down.  We're all under a lot of stress right now.  Earlier this semester I made promises to myself that I would work to get out of the BoCo bubble more and only spend time with people who I enjoy being around.  For the most part I've been accomplishing that.  I've seen a lot of beautiful places in Boston this semester and gotten to know a lot of beautiful people a little better.  We only have 33 days left of freshman year... Let's make the best of it.  And the world spins madly on...

Woke up and wished that I was dead

With an aching in my head 
I lay motionless in bed
I thought of you and where you'd gone
and let the world spin madly on

Everything that I said I'd do 
Like make the world brand new
And take the time for you
I just got lost and slept right through the dawn 
And the world spins madly on

I let the day go by 
I always say goodbye
I watch the stars from my window sill 
The whole world is moving and I'm standing still

Woke up and wished that I was dead 
With an aching in my head 
I lay motionless in bed
The night is here and the day is gone
And the world spins madly on

I thought of you and where you'd gone 
And the world spins madly on.